Sunday, January the 13th, 2019.

​​ 12:13 A.M.

Raw Form — Midnight Writing.

[Actual pieces of a written dialog with MYSELF. Wanted to share with YOU some of the relationship I actually have with MYSELF in its raw form, as IT comes to ME, as I process IT…]

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— OH, MY! HERE WE ARE.

A whole year has gone by since you started to take action on the ONE decision you had ever made thinking about no one but YOURSELF. I'm proud of YOU! I'm proud of ME. Feels Good, huh?

How crazy and amazing life can be when you are willing to act on what feels right to YOU!

If you would've asked me if this is what I was aiming for, I'd be lying if I said any answer other than: «I had no clue about where I wanted to be, but I trusted blindly in the fact that IT was coming to ME inevitably».

In the meantime, I was happy knowing where I didn't want to be and walking away from it. "..." — WE'VE ALL MADE IT!

*BABY GENESIS, Thank YOU for Remembering.

*BABY-CHILD GENESIS, Thank YOU for finding ways to express in visual ways, so IT would be printed deeper in OUR BRAIN.

*CHILD GENESIS, I'm sorry YOU had to understand The Power Of Words so early. I'm sorry YOU had to be aware of so much at such a young age. Thank YOU for being so strong, child. Thank YOU for Creating that Secret Place. Thank YOU for hiding US in YOUR Stories so the Memories wouldn't vanish. Thank YOU for being so smart little ONE, YOU hid it in a different language to Yours, so THEY would always be YOUR OWN. THEY couldn't be affected by their words; OMG! YOU not only understood the Power Of Words at a way too young age, YOU cracked IT when IT became dangerous to YOU! — Thank YOU little, BIG GENIUS! Thank YOU for hiding and protecting IT so well right before turning into Stone... I understand why it happened now.

TO MY TEENAGE AND YOUNG ADULT GÉNESIS:

I'm so sorry YOU had to go through it all with a part of US turned into Stone. I'm sorry YOU had to walk 'Half-Empty' for so long…

Thank YOU for not forgetting The Stories. Thank YOU for continuing to create even when IT was dark and confusing. Thank YOU for not shutting US down completely and trusting OUR VOICE even though IT was so noisy (My Goodness, Your Brain was so noisy!!) Thank YOU for knowing and finding The Way to quiet it down. Thank YOU for not choosing the easy way. Thank YOU for Staying.

Thank YOU for holding on to Empathy, Forgiveness, Kindness, and LOVE the way YOU did during such dark moments inside our brain. Thank YOU for becoming Impenetrable even if that meant shutting down Happiness for a while.

Thank YOU for taking on the darkness and holding on for what was yet to be seen.

THANK YOU FOR BELIEVING, no matter what. Thank YOU for knowing when to let go.

CURRENT〄GENESIS, Thank YOU for allowing Yourself to be EVERYTHING!

Today is Sunday, January the 13th, 2019; 02:13 A.M.

…and 13 just happens to be my «lucky number»

Today, I'm Happy.

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I still feel *BABY GENESIS, and SHE still Remembers. So now I can яemember.

I still feel *BABY-CHILD GENESIS, and SHE keeps finding ways to express HERSELF in visual ways. So now I express MYSELF through EVERYTHING I do.

I still feel *CHILD GENESIS, OH MY! SHE's having a blast with WORDS. And now, I've become My Own Words enough times to choose only words of Kindness.

I still feel *TEENAGE-YOUNG ADULT GÉNESIS; SHE walked blindly for so many years holding on as hard as SHE could to the things that felt right to HER and hoping not to lose THEM, but SHE didn't! And now I get to relax knowing that those things are part of ME by Nature again.

I'M EXCITED for the things to come…

...LIFE LOOKS BEAUTIFUL FROM HERE.

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